If you have felt that your past was so bad that God could not forgive you, you are wrong. At some point, I also thought like this; I thought that I had failed God too much and would not forgive me. God, in His infinite mercy, not only forgives us but forgets our transgressions. In Isaiah 43:25, it says: I, I am the one who blots out your transgressions for my own sake, and I will not remember your sins. If you still think that your past is unforgivable, I will share two things that, in my opinion, are to blame for that feeling.
The Enemy: The enemy will always attack your mind. If he manages to convince you that your sins are too high for God to forgive you, you will always have that internal struggle with yourself. Since the beginning of time, Satan's mission is to separate us from God. He tempted Eve to eat the forbidden fruit. He sowed envy in Cain's heart so that he would kill Abel. Your mind is a constant battlefield. Romans 10: 5 says: …and we take captive every thought to be submitted to Christ. Every thought that goes against what God says in his word does not come from Him; therefore, we must take those thoughts to Christ immediately and not give them room in our mind where, by tendency, we enlarge them and become slaves of them.
For God, there are no differences between sins. Sin is sin. When you come to Him in total repentance, God will forgive your faults, and He will never remember them again. Acts 3:19 says: Therefore, that your sins may be blotted out, repent and turn to God, so that times of rest may come from the Lord. If you have already gone before God and have repented, if you asked for forgiveness; I can assure you that for God, your sin is forgiven and forgotten.
You have not forgiven yourself: Perhaps you have not forgiven yourself for the damage you have caused or the bad decisions that have led to severe consequences. And that unforgiveness of ourselves is always going to taint our idea of God's forgiveness. We feel so guilty that despite knowing that God forgives and forgets, we cannot stop torturing ourselves, making the path easier for the enemy. That lack of self-forgiveness, the enemy always uses in his favor so that you feel excluded from God's grace.
If you study the Bible, you will see that the vast majority of biblical characters have a very different past than what you imagine for a man or woman of God. From liars, thieves, murderers, adulterers, etc. Great biblical characters with unforgivable pasts if it wasn’t for the grace and love of God. And if you read the lives of these characters in-depth, you will see that God not only forgave their offenses but also perfectly used them for his purpose, turning them into great men and women of God, of whom you and I have heard until today.
To reach your potential, you have to forgive yourself. God already did it and didn't even think about them, do the same. Every time the enemy plants that thought of your past in your mind, remind him that God has already forgiven you, that he threw your sins to the bottom of the sea and will no longer bring them to memory. Cancel all plans of the enemy in your life and continue the race towards the goal.
Accept God's forgiveness. Forgive yourself. Ask for forgiveness if necessary. Free yourself from those thoughts that tie you to live a limited life in God because you feel unworthy of His grace. Be free!
