“You split the seas so I could walk right through it, my fears are drowned in perfect love....” except their not.
At any given service, they might sing this song, and I might sing along with tears rolling down my face. Sometimes my hairs even stand in place, and then, the song is over, and I’m left standing, no sitting no drowning in my fears. When my reality hits me, I realize that love has not drowned out fear; instead, fear has materialized into the air that I breathe, and it’s leaving me breathless, filling me while killing me, but I can’t seem to stop inhaling. This is anxiety.
It’s brought on by everything, well often brought on by some things, no, the truth is, it’s usually brought on by nothing. It feels like a light switch that’s turned on by anything, anything except me, Why? Cause I’m not, it’s master I’m its puppet.
No matter how many times I have tried to flip the script. I know I cannot possibly be the only one who has felt this way. Now, I don't have diagnosed anxiety, nor did I find myself suffering from anxiety. I'd say mine started creeping up with age. As I got older, I found that trusting God became harder. I'd say the main reason for that was not knowing His Word well enough. But, life situations also played a role in how I trusted God.
No matter what your walk looks line right now, I believe everyone can relate to this article. After reading, you will be able to use the word to bring all your thoughts of fear against Christ's love. So, let's start there. "There is no fear in love, but perfect love cast out fears." (1 John 4:18) As I have grown in my knowledge of who God is, I realized that my faith in God was not where I believed it to be. When I faced this truth, I found the root of MY problem. More than fear, this is about faith. Let's define faith based on the Bible. Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." Simply put, faith requires you to hope in what you can't see. Well, at least that's what I thought. Hoping in the things I wanted but couldn't see, left me frustrated when things didn't go as I "hoped" for, more like planned for.
I'm a recovering control freak; I can admit that. Due to that control, I developed this idea that faith was based on hoping that everything I wished for would come to true because God has me. As long as I'm positive and believe... I have news for you, that is not faith that is the law of attraction, which puts you in control rather than God. When you have taught yourself that you and God got this the way you have it planned out, you become anxious when it goes wrong. You feel frustrated, angry, and fearful that God won't keep His promise next time. The problem with that is nowhere in the Bible did He promise to be your genie; He said He would be your Father.
For so long, I believed my faith was excellent because I thought God could do anything. Yet that same faith, I struggled to find he was for me and not against me. I struggled to believe He was a good God because I didn't see Him as my Father. Over time I've learned to see Him in that light, and it has been life-changing. The best part, He is your Father too, the moment you believe Jesus to be your savior. As a Father, He can guide you in every step you take; He can heal your broken heart. He can provide where you cannot. He can be I Am. When you can trust who He is, then you can receive a peace that surpasses all understanding. As you sit in that peace, you can see that His words are true and valid; they are for bettering you; they are for your good, not your harm.
See, He is a sovereign and GOOD God, He is rich in mercy, and He gave you, and I grace upon grace! When I sat in this place of knowledge, I learned to see and feel not just any love but also perfect love. "He saved me. He took me back. He healed my heart. He created rivers of joy in my soul. He LOVES ME," and He loves YOU! If He can take care of the birds and hold the earth in its orbit, couldn’t He also take care of you better than you? You don’t need to worry about anything when you have placed your faith in a Good God. "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7
